Defeated.
I usually dun feel this way but when it comes to love I become weak, I’ve been trying to find the right words to say but this has been the hardest… an I’m still lost….
Looking back, I wonder if I had made the right decision,I wonder if the sleepless night was worth it, or the endless tears would wash away hurts that could never heal; I wonder if I skipped my meals would anyone notice that I am alright?
I wonder if religion is important? That people would spend time understanding it, I wonder if my faith is strong, that its enough to overcome the past and courage to move on? I wonder if I am able to breathe new life to my soul ?
I wonder if there is a program to install love? or to make someone human? I wonder if ever I was given a chance, would I do it again or would I do something different? I wonder…
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
sawadee.....
Sawasdee..... is what u greet people when u see people here in bangkok, unlike the Malaysian style "sudah makan? " we say sawadee here..ends with kaa if your are girl or kup if your are a guy, krup if you are neither..... being a part of bangkokians is not much fun at all, especially when everyone walks a lot. there is no point taking a freaking tuk-tuk or catching a cab when the speed is an average or 25km per hour,
Might as well walk to the BTS station and then walk some more again back to your hotel... i manage to bring my brother go sight-seeing while he was having a school break back in Malaysia. this is my bro amazed by the traffic jam every minute in bangkok, we were taking the other direction,
it was too congested to go thru sukhvumit road...(sukhumit road is the longest and busiest street everyday , something like jalan sultan ismail, jalan p.ramlee back in kuala lumpur)
i brought him shopping of course, in the heart of the city, Yaowarat!!! ..means chinatown in bangkok, its near to hua lam phong station...or u can take a mrt there...but i reckon u that anyone should take a cab to Chinatown from the mrt, its a loooooong walk from there... when i say long , it means at least 20mins walk....unless you can really walk but malaysian will opt to take tuk -tuk or cab...cost not more than 50B or RM 5..anything more means you've been taken for a ride.....
my bro was amazed not only by the amount of stuff sold in chinatown , but also the smells the he pick up evry now and then, the are local thais selling main dishes with sweet and sour aroma and the opposite you have chinese -thai selling fish maws,with dried squid... now put the smell together and learn to distinguish which is aroma and which is smelly...i really have no idea at all....but here are some pics for you to see...
# one of the shop in chinatown selling fish maws..
the fish stomach here are pretty cheap compare to those back home in malaysia, or sabah or china...one packet is about RM 12 and its about 500G... fried one i mean...but mostly are fried...
u can also get shitake mushrooms here which is very cheap.... the chinatown in bangkok is much bigger than the one in kuala lumpur, say at least 10 times bigger, and the road 2 times smaller,very narrow.... everything congested in the bustling life instead of chinatown...the end of chinatown actually sells more accessories and jeweleries one can imagine....
# the width of the road in chinatown itself,
only motorsai are accessible via this lane, if the cab driver choose to drops you off, then jus let them drop you off at the main street , the main street would look a little bit like hong kong, mong kok street... if you dun know how mong kok in hong kong would looks like then go figure :P
chinatown is a must see when visiting bangkok. of course you can also go see pat pong , then again people like me would have no interest in pat pong or you could go to the flaoting market but its about 1.5 hours drive from bangkok itself..we spend almost half a day in bangkok,chinatown. there is a lot to see and also a lot to eat if you like bird nest and shark fin, along some corners u may find food vendors selling fish stomach with bamboo shoots, try it!
at the end of chinatown would be thieves market, you may see a lot of Nepal and Pakistani in the street there..its not called thieves market if you think people there look like thives, or occasionally one or two may look like one :P , the nepal and pakistanis mainly sell cloth...you may be suprise that they actually speak fluent thai and english... they sell cloth in bulk...they are also sisha but the stuff are sent to pattaya or other tourist attraction places in the coast of thailand...
our journey ended around 4pm local time.... we were very tired when we reached the hotel. also exhausted from all the walking...
thats all for chinatown , more photos later!!!
Might as well walk to the BTS station and then walk some more again back to your hotel... i manage to bring my brother go sight-seeing while he was having a school break back in Malaysia. this is my bro amazed by the traffic jam every minute in bangkok, we were taking the other direction,
it was too congested to go thru sukhvumit road...(sukhumit road is the longest and busiest street everyday , something like jalan sultan ismail, jalan p.ramlee back in kuala lumpur)i brought him shopping of course, in the heart of the city, Yaowarat!!! ..means chinatown in bangkok, its near to hua lam phong station...or u can take a mrt there...but i reckon u that anyone should take a cab to Chinatown from the mrt, its a loooooong walk from there... when i say long , it means at least 20mins walk....unless you can really walk but malaysian will opt to take tuk -tuk or cab...cost not more than 50B or RM 5..anything more means you've been taken for a ride.....
my bro was amazed not only by the amount of stuff sold in chinatown , but also the smells the he pick up evry now and then, the are local thais selling main dishes with sweet and sour aroma and the opposite you have chinese -thai selling fish maws,with dried squid... now put the smell together and learn to distinguish which is aroma and which is smelly...i really have no idea at all....but here are some pics for you to see...
# one of the shop in chinatown selling fish maws..
the fish stomach here are pretty cheap compare to those back home in malaysia, or sabah or china...one packet is about RM 12 and its about 500G... fried one i mean...but mostly are fried...u can also get shitake mushrooms here which is very cheap.... the chinatown in bangkok is much bigger than the one in kuala lumpur, say at least 10 times bigger, and the road 2 times smaller,very narrow.... everything congested in the bustling life instead of chinatown...the end of chinatown actually sells more accessories and jeweleries one can imagine....
# the width of the road in chinatown itself,
only motorsai are accessible via this lane, if the cab driver choose to drops you off, then jus let them drop you off at the main street , the main street would look a little bit like hong kong, mong kok street... if you dun know how mong kok in hong kong would looks like then go figure :Pchinatown is a must see when visiting bangkok. of course you can also go see pat pong , then again people like me would have no interest in pat pong or you could go to the flaoting market but its about 1.5 hours drive from bangkok itself..we spend almost half a day in bangkok,chinatown. there is a lot to see and also a lot to eat if you like bird nest and shark fin, along some corners u may find food vendors selling fish stomach with bamboo shoots, try it!
at the end of chinatown would be thieves market, you may see a lot of Nepal and Pakistani in the street there..its not called thieves market if you think people there look like thives, or occasionally one or two may look like one :P , the nepal and pakistanis mainly sell cloth...you may be suprise that they actually speak fluent thai and english... they sell cloth in bulk...they are also sisha but the stuff are sent to pattaya or other tourist attraction places in the coast of thailand...
our journey ended around 4pm local time.... we were very tired when we reached the hotel. also exhausted from all the walking...
thats all for chinatown , more photos later!!!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
101 ideas to suprise your loved one
What do you do when your boyfriend decided to come home early and give a surprise so that you would be in total shock when you sees him?
Instead, you come here
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it’s 11.30 now and every freaking person I know is either lazing at home or watching tv, joey would probably be sleeping and dreaming about prince charming riding in white horse to come and save her….
I came over to the pantry to load some cappuccino for myself…..and boy do I wish I have this in my office..ok ok..i look like sakai cause my office is so cool, smacked in solaris and yet dun have some thinga magica like this….
Remember the crazy boss who is pathetic and stingy? U think she will reward the thinga magica for me like this? Likely not la…. So (tai fong meh)generous?
I think multi national company are jus so cool, ok ok….like I said it again, I am sakai la, cause I’m working for a small company and I dun have like two freaking microwave which says “HALAL” and “NON-HALAL” ..i only have one which everything goes whether you like it to be halal or not……
K la, I really should be signing off now cause my boyfriend would think that I’m having a great time in his office…which I dun…. cause I wanna go bac to my bed to sleep…..
No, its not going for fine dining…
and NO, it not attending some live band…
Instead, you come here
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it’s 11.30 now and every freaking person I know is either lazing at home or watching tv, joey would probably be sleeping and dreaming about prince charming riding in white horse to come and save her….
I came over to the pantry to load some cappuccino for myself…..and boy do I wish I have this in my office..ok ok..i look like sakai cause my office is so cool, smacked in solaris and yet dun have some thinga magica like this….
Remember the crazy boss who is pathetic and stingy? U think she will reward the thinga magica for me like this? Likely not la…. So (tai fong meh)generous?
I think multi national company are jus so cool, ok ok….like I said it again, I am sakai la, cause I’m working for a small company and I dun have like two freaking microwave which says “HALAL” and “NON-HALAL” ..i only have one which everything goes whether you like it to be halal or not……
K la, I really should be signing off now cause my boyfriend would think that I’m having a great time in his office…which I dun…. cause I wanna go bac to my bed to sleep…..
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
My new love
I’ve been busy lately at home, I cant wait to get off after work,
My new love now is occupying most of my time,
Very exicited,
as for now, i look forward to go home...
no! I am not talking about orgasm if that is what you thinking
But ever since having crappy wardrobe and increasing number of clothes,
I have transport all my clothes in my luggages which looks like a bunch of crap and loads of crap...
transforming....this
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TO THIS ..
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by the way, the light was bought by Mr.B, he says its the moon....+__+
you dun wanna know what else he said but i did mentioned him not to stand under the moon, incase he turn into a werewolf....
and i dun think the movie underworld is nice ok? ok gettin a bit lame now...
anyway, I've been busy hanging all my dresses, tops, and categories them in their respective places
Finally..my dresses finds its place call home...
My new love now is occupying most of my time,
Very exicited,
as for now, i look forward to go home...
no! I am not talking about orgasm if that is what you thinking
But ever since having crappy wardrobe and increasing number of clothes,
I have transport all my clothes in my luggages which looks like a bunch of crap and loads of crap...
Voila. ....
transforming....this
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TO THIS ..
...by the way, the light was bought by Mr.B, he says its the moon....+__+
you dun wanna know what else he said but i did mentioned him not to stand under the moon, incase he turn into a werewolf....
and i dun think the movie underworld is nice ok? ok gettin a bit lame now...
anyway, I've been busy hanging all my dresses, tops, and categories them in their respective places
Finally..my dresses finds its place call home...
Friday, March 6, 2009
Bac home with love
I’ve been having dinner without the person that I adore for the very past few days, and as time flies, the days had turn to weeks and I’ve always hated when we are separated for a long time. Long time for me means more than a week, I dun care if u think I’m crazy or others think that a week is still tolerable because for me it is not.
And yesterday was a very bad day for me, I did call him to tell that I was pretty much quite sick with work, and my lady boss is jus breathing down my neck as the exhibition days approach.. there were so many stuff to follow up especially when handover list and so many stuff she wanna change here n there. I jus need to get done. Yes, I complained over the phone and I needed attention and I needed him over , if its possible, to comfort me , to hug me, to make me feel better….of course there were worst problem that he was facing at work because he had explained that he was gonna be busy during this time of the month. But it still didn’t stop me from complaining and sulking to him.
“ you know what? I’ll take the next flight home”
“ what? Why….? I tot u haf work ??”
“ perhaps you would feel better …..i’ll see you in the evening then…take care baby”
That was the sweetest thing…
And yesterday was a very bad day for me, I did call him to tell that I was pretty much quite sick with work, and my lady boss is jus breathing down my neck as the exhibition days approach.. there were so many stuff to follow up especially when handover list and so many stuff she wanna change here n there. I jus need to get done. Yes, I complained over the phone and I needed attention and I needed him over , if its possible, to comfort me , to hug me, to make me feel better….of course there were worst problem that he was facing at work because he had explained that he was gonna be busy during this time of the month. But it still didn’t stop me from complaining and sulking to him.
“ you know what? I’ll take the next flight home”
“ what? Why….? I tot u haf work ??”
“ perhaps you would feel better …..i’ll see you in the evening then…take care baby”
That was the sweetest thing…
Thursday, February 26, 2009
No more ole-ole Bali!
I miss having good food for lunch these days.
I miss having rice.
Sometimes i feel like having instant noodle,
Most of the time i feel like having latte after my lunch,
every morning i feel like having nasi lemak,
but muesli is all i stick to til end of next month,
in between work, i feel like munching on snacks,
cookies are my favourite,
but i can only munch on fruits now....
Argghhh.....losing weight frustrates me!
...from now till end of march, i have to forget all these,
i'm on a strict diet and i wanna lose my flabs around me,
thankfully, my colleague is here to accompany me,
i miss having ole ole bali for lunch!
ok, i damn emo when i look at the sambal ok.?
i love spicy food...
I miss having rice.
Sometimes i feel like having instant noodle,
Most of the time i feel like having latte after my lunch,
every morning i feel like having nasi lemak,
but muesli is all i stick to til end of next month,
in between work, i feel like munching on snacks,
cookies are my favourite,
but i can only munch on fruits now....
Argghhh.....losing weight frustrates me!
...from now till end of march, i have to forget all these,i'm on a strict diet and i wanna lose my flabs around me,
thankfully, my colleague is here to accompany me,
i miss having ole ole bali for lunch!
ok, i damn emo when i look at the sambal ok.?
i love spicy food...
Monday, February 23, 2009
Mat tow tak....
Ever since I was angry with B for several days, he has not taken any initiative to make me happy….or perhaps I’m too stubborn to be happy in front of him….B is a person that I care about but I will blog about him another time k?
recently, he had given me a letter …consisting of three coupons cutely drawn and sign by him…. Which I find rather cute and charming..
I find myself staring at the coupons, giggling and trying to make full use of the coupons that B had gave me......
I’ve been given three coupons by B to use with no expiry date and no limit.
Well the coupons given and drawn by him is called “ mat tow tak”..meaning?...anything also can….
It can be use for anything …
For a holiday
For a Back rub
For a handbag
For a car
For being my driver
For a house…waaa seh…..not possible la….
I think the list can go on,
I wonder why he didn’t give me one instead ??
could it be possible to request for unlimited mat tow tak with the one coupons I have…..?
That would be total awesome ness!!
What do u think ? what should I do with the coupons?
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